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Tuesday, August 19th, 2003
4:31 pm	ATTENTION SABRINA WILL NOW BE POSTING IN THE JOURNAL way_parasitical pretty please update your friends! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
10:40 am	Wishing Well, Wish You Well Today I see The Eagles. The Eagles. ::dies:: Scanner should arrive today. Flamingo Lounge, as well. Oh man, I wish I could be there for the bulk of it... Mocktails! Woot! Yeah, so, some strange, very funny-looking lady came to my house yesterday and walked around, measuring things and taking notes. It weirded me out. My parents were paying her something outrageous like $400 to determine the value of our house. Here's how it goes: as a part of the divorce, my mom gets half of the house. In order for my dad to keep the house, he needs to buy out my mom's half. If he can't, then we'll have to sell it. We bought this house 17 years ago for about $150,000. Now, it's probably worth a good $450,000. Not kidding. So, if it gets down to it, I may have to leave the house that I've spent my entire life growing up in. I. Fucking. Hate. This. April, 2003: Best friend commits suicide. June, 2003, first day of summer: I'm told that my parents are splitting up. August, 2003: One of my oldest friends tries to kill himself. And I'm still afraid he will. ::sighs:: On the plus side, I've been to more concerts this summer than I have in my entire life: Ozzfest, Warped Tour, Third Eye Blind and The Eagles tonight. God bless music. And also on the plus side, I have a wonderful boyfriend who gives me everything I ever needed in a relationship. We're fast approaching 11 months. And I get to see my sister. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: At the Drive-In (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 18th, 2003
7:47 pm	HAHAHAHAHAHA I love you, Nick. (Comment on this)
6:58 pm	Freakin' Hot Sex Scene My parents are doing all this crizzy divorce stuff and it's really lame. The only time I get to see my parents together now is when they're filling out divorce papers. That rocks. After saying that I was going to be able to choose how my living arrangements were going to be. Yesterday, however, I was told that I was going to have to live the majority of the time with my mom. I told her that I wasn't leaving my home. ::gets mad:: Protector The ULTIMATE personality test brought to you by Quizilla Cool. Sounds vaguely like me. Current Mood: lonely Current Music: ppbbbtttt (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 17th, 2003
4:49 pm	I've returned. You may begin suffering. Tarzan! What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!) brought to you by Quizilla I now bask in the warm sunshine that is a wonderful summer vacation... ( Welcome home, Sabrina, welcome home. ) Current Mood: happy Current Music: "Fortress Around Your Heart", Sting (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 9th, 2003
1:20 am	JC is approaching fast. I. DON'T. WANT. TO. GO. (Comment on this)
Friday, August 8th, 2003
11:23 am	wahh! JESUS CAMP in freakin' 2 days. Ack. Went shopping with my mom at Target and got a massive amount of clothes. I love Target to no end. I finally got some underwear to fit my fat butt, too, which rocks like whoa. Went to therapy for the first time in an uber long time yesterday: my therapist has moved to MINNESOTA and flies back here twice a week to work. Weird. I hung out with Bonnie last night, 'twas fun. We walked around downtown and tried desperately to find a business that was open past freakin' nine. We found two: Ben and Jerry's and Borders. So I got a huge freakin' cone of Phish Food and we wondered about what pistachio ice cream would taste like. We went to Borders and then she went home. Thennnnn I wandered around downtown until Colin called me and then I went to Colin's and slept over. He had work the next day and that was lame. And now a feel way blah and my mom is calling and yapping, "spend time with me, spend time with me!!!" Ahhhhh!! Current Mood: blah Current Music: "Misfits", Third Eye Blind (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 6th, 2003
3:38 pm	Minutes of April / How was Paris? It's completely official. It's time to bust out my felt pens once again, it's time to find my knife. 12 hours until Fritz leaves. 3 days until JESUS CAMP ((dies)). Two weeks until Los Angeles with my sister and DISNEYLAND. I'm so freakin excited. About LA. Not Fritz leaving or JESUS CAMP. "I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell." Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: "Stairway to Heaven", Led Zepplin (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 4th, 2003
2:47 pm	The Ovary Overlord Has Something to Say. Summer is fading fast. I've been spending most of my time with Fritz and/or Fritz's friends for the past couple days and really not feeling much motivation to do much else. My bitter feelings towards my parents have subsided and instead of listening to depressing music, I've been writing love songs. Corny, isn't it? At least I'm not writing depressed-teenager-going-though-a-life-changing-event lyrics, right? It's time to REPAINT MY NAILS, an exciting time that only occurs every two-weeks or so. This time: red. My NEW SCANNER should be arriving sometime soon... Tomorrow is TEN MONTHS. And Fritz's leaves for Scotland in three days. ::dies:: Current Mood: subdued Current Music: Really fast, frantic, and un-relaxing violin music. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 1st, 2003
10:44 pm	Friend Bear I don't know if I feel good or bad right now. I'm not sure if I'm stupid in a cute way, or stupid in a pitiful way; they're not horribly different things. I know I'm not a total idiot. I feel like I do have some intelligence, like there is some depth to me, but sometimes I end up challenging that. A lot of the time, my friends poke fun at me and pick on me (in a friendly way) because I'm not always quite so bright, but it still gets to me, all the same. I'm not how I see myself, that's for sure. I suppose I'm somewhat of a joke among some people, aren't I? Tomorrow: ROMPING WITH FRITZ, (I hope). Current Mood: confused Current Music: My favorite band. Who can name them? (9 Comments |Comment on this)
8:55 pm	Who's cool? Mike and Nick are. The braces are off. It was a traumatizing experience, yes, but everything ended up alright. My retainer, however, sucks more than your mom. It makes me gag, constantly. Are retainers SUPPOSED to make you gag? No. Blasted thing. I've re-fallen in love with STAR WARS (lip smacking) and R2-D2. I LOVE R2-D2 MORE THAN ANYTHING. Coolest band ever: Pink Floyd Coolest movie ever: Titus Looking forward to: MIKE. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: "I Can't See Your Face In My Mind", The Doors (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 31st, 2003
2:57 pm	I get my braces off in a few hours. The excitement has worn off. I was supposed to hang out with Fritz after I got them off, but instead he decided to go to San Fran to pick up Brandon and won't be back until six or seven? I'm super-disappointed. ::sighs:: I got a present for Courtney. I think she'll like it... Well, I hope she does. Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: "One Foot In Front of the Other", Bright Eyes (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 30th, 2003
11:40 am	( Coolville, population: us. ) Current Music: "The Moral of Rosa, Parolee", Son, Ambulance (Comment on this)
11:02 am	Room Temperature ::sighs:: Summer. My mind has been whirring away recently, creating a story that will hopefully end up on paper sooner or later... I've found that I "write" better when I'm thinking to myself, not when I'm at a computer or with a pen in my hand. I suppose it's because I expect something out of myself when I'm actually popping out words and sentences. When I'm riding my bike and talking to myself, however, it's not that way. Last night, a little after midnight, when I was riding my bike home from Fritz's, I saw lightning flash three times in the clear sky. It was amazing. Dad's on the phone right now with some woman with a Russian accent who's talking to my dad about his publications? Or something. I'm only hearing one half of the conversation. What I heard George W. say on the radio: "I believe in the sanctity of marrige... which is between a man and woman... (long pause) and I hope to codify that." I'm not even going to go into how his speech-writers cleverly disguised the fact that he's anti-gay marrige, and instead I'm going to laugh at the fact that George probably doesn't even know what "codify" means. ::sprouts a mohawk, plaid, Converse and a dirty, ragged, patched jacket:: DOWN WITH THE MAN! UP THE PUNX! ANARCHY!! Yay. I get my braces off TOMORROW. TOMORROW. Do you understand this? TOMORROW. Current Mood: excited Current Music: "Worked Up So Sexual", The Faint (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 28th, 2003
7:52 pm	Mah-Jong NewDocDrew: hello their sabs istoleyourspot: hello hello] NewDocDrew: can I scream at your gender for a second? istoleyourspot: go right ahead!! NewDocDrew: WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ALL YOU, YOU MAKE NO FUCKING SENSE WHATSOEVER! ARE YOU ALL HIGH?! WHAT IS THIS CRAP?! NewDocDrew: gah NewDocDrew: thanks :-) The scanner will be replaced. The HP techie guy said I "got a dud". Halo is fun, but I'm way lame at it. ::checks thermometer:: Yes, it is, indeed, 2763 degrees outside. No joke. My mom's having me read a book, "Every Breath You Take". I'm 18 pages into it, but before I even started, I wasn't too keen on it; any book named after a line from a pop/rock song isn't too promising, am I right? ("Every breath you take, every move you make, every smile you fake, every heart you break, I'll be watching you." - Sting) So, here comes the serious stuff: My parents are getting divorce. Fuck how they told me that they were going to try to work things out, how this was probably only temporary, it was just another fucking lie that's now filed in my mind along with all the others. I had a perfect family. I really did. Mom is having trouble getting a hold of my therapist and considering that she's moving to Minnesota next month, I doubt she'll be much help in all of this. My parents (Mom, mostly) are now enforcing all thee rules that were never rules before... It's like they (she) feel like they've lost control of me or something, even though we all know that I'm not very hard to take care of. I guess it's not too surprising that they are getting a divorce, after all. I mean, what did I expect? I suppose it's just the shock of the separation being so legal, so official. As a side note, I hate how the government tries to control every freakin' aspect of our lives. That's why I'm moving to Switzerland. Switzerland is cool. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: "Heart of the Matter", DON HENLEY (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 26th, 2003
12:07 pm	Extreme Amusement! I HAD A REALLY WEIRD DREAM. NICK HAD BOOBS. And so much more!! Read about it... ( Click HERE for the weirdness. ) Current Mood: amused Current Music: birds squwaking (Comment on this)
Friday, July 25th, 2003
5:27 pm	MY SCANNER ISN'T WORKING I'M GOING TO KILL SOMETHING. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 22nd, 2003
11:15 pm	Two, Three, Suck. Tomorrow I swim. Today, Colin came over and we tried to make cookies but they died like your mom when she saw me naked. The whole house filled with smoke and the cookies were smoking, as well, so I sat the pan of them out on the sidewalk. Mom then assisted us. I killed Colin at Mario Kart, marvelled at his 10 stitches and fell in love with the trance CD from London that he gave to me for my birthday. Woot. We watched "Ghost Ship", which freaked me out royally, oh man, there was so much dead. We then watched "Ghost" with DEMI MOORE and PATRICK SWAYZE and it was cool. We then ate dinner, played more Kart and drove the man home. COLIN IS IN A MOVIE! Oh em gee, dubble yoo tee eff is that?! istoleyourspot: it's so fucking hot outside. HkMGuitaristZERO: Yes HkMGuitaristZERO: It was 1200003123 HkMGuitaristZERO: degrees today And my scanner rocks. ::points at you:: You suck. Unless you're a Young. Then you're cool. You're HomeStar! ***Which HomeStar Runner Character Are You?*** brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: moo-sik (4 Comments |Comment on this)
9:03 am	Who can say ROCK? Oh my, it feels good to be fifteen. However, it does NOT feel good when your clothes don't fit anymore because you've gained 8 pounds as a side-affect of taking a stupid pill once a day. So, today marked the start of my new way of life: excersize! ...did I spell that wrong? Whatever. My new goal is to lose weight because heaven knows I need to. BIRTHDAY! On the 19th, Saturday, the day before my birthday, Fritz had a super get-together at his house with all our friends and we played video games and even the Youngs stayed for it all! I was so pleased that they stuck around. There was also a TYSON. However, to my disappointment, THERE WAS NO COLIN. I finally saw Stephen for the first time since graduation (wow) and it was wonderful. When Stephen, Traci, Courtney and I went to Pizza Guys (758-8888) to get pizza, we also ran across the street and said hello to Mary, Bob's mom. The house has changed like whoa, especially Arthur's room. There is now a futon in it, the bed is neatly made, the floor vacuumed... but Boris was still there, against the wall, and the picture I had drawn for Arthur's room so very long ago was still duct-taped on the closet door, the only thing left on it. It made me so incredibly happy to see it there. At one point during the night, I was sitting on the couch next to Tyson, looked at the clock and discovered, to my shock, that it was almost six in the morning already. That's when I went to bed. Fritz and I woke up at two-ish, got a ride with Lanette to the train station and took a train down to Emeryville, which was great. I love trains. We then got a ride with the cool bus driver into San Fransisco for FREE, and the whole way he talked to us about life and culture and growing up and how we need to made sure that we don't screw up, etc. He was very well-informed, very intelligent and had a wonderfully extensive vocabluary. He talked to us about black culture (he was black) and about making right choices... He wished us both a happy birthday and told Fritz that dating a girl two years younger than him was "right on the line". ::laughs:: When we told him we were seeing Phantom of the Opera, he acted amazed and said, "so, you guys are cultured!!" Oh man, we loved that bus driver. I was so surprised that a man so intelligent was driving a bus. He dropped us off on Howard and Spear and we then walked the ten-or-so blocks there were to 8th and Market, where the theater was. Phantom of the Opera was positively WONDERFUL. Monday, Sally, Fritz and I went to the Haight/Ashbury area, went to all the second-hand stores and had great fun. Too bad we got back to the car FIVE MINUTES after a parking ticket had been issued. Damn them to hell. So attempted to drive home in the failed car, but that didn't work out, so Keith had to come pick us up from a random gas station in Fairfield. My weekend! I'm fifteen! Tomorrow: hanging out with Alex and his sexy new computer. Current Mood: determined Current Music: your mom moaning (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 19th, 2003
12:07 pm	You represent... loneliness. Always alone and always sad about it... unlike angst, you don't have to look for a reason to be miserable. You want to be in the company of people but aren't sure how to act when you're with them. Sometimes you have to make an effort. You can't always wait for others to come to you. What feeling do you represent? brought to you by Quizilla (1 Comment |Comment on this)